Often times, I find it hard to express feelings. I can be having the best day of my life, and my friend can be having the worst. It goes either direction.
I can be so excited to tell everyone about something AWESOME that has happened to me, and the first person I see is crying. They can tell I'm excited, but I need to be there for them.
This life isn't about me.
It's easier to remember my good news an hour later and pick up my happy self than bring someone else down. However, this ball can be thrown the opposite way. Everyone can tell your day has been crappy and they never bother to say anything. We get so caught up in our own lives, that it's hard to remember how to act.
Happiness is one of those things that you have to think about two ways. Some things can make you happy in the "here and now," but possibly not the future, and somethings are just plain happy all the time. I find myself struggling with this. Yesterday I even told Grant "I wish I wasn't so happy." It just makes things more complicated. I know I'll have a stressful day. I'm not sure things will work out. I'm not sure if I should keep current happiness for fear of it not being future happiness..
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
things I miss
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1. My Pocahontas alarm. It belted "Colors of the wind," every morning until my 2nd semester of college.
2. Being able to spend equal time with each of my parents on weekends.
3. My "Dodge DIENASTY"
4. Late night swimming parties.
5. Being able to eat 5 pounds of gummy bears without needing to throw up.
6. Laying out my clothes the night before, and sometimes being able to sleep in them if it were an early morning.
7. Days with Grandma Helen. Going to garage sales and EVERY store in town to find the best deals.
8. Life before facebook, email, phones.
9. Finding letters in newspapers and circling them.
10. Having your mom pick your friends, and forcing you to be nice to everyone, even if they were really mean.
1. My Pocahontas alarm. It belted "Colors of the wind," every morning until my 2nd semester of college.
2. Being able to spend equal time with each of my parents on weekends.
3. My "Dodge DIENASTY"
4. Late night swimming parties.
5. Being able to eat 5 pounds of gummy bears without needing to throw up.
6. Laying out my clothes the night before, and sometimes being able to sleep in them if it were an early morning.
7. Days with Grandma Helen. Going to garage sales and EVERY store in town to find the best deals.
8. Life before facebook, email, phones.
9. Finding letters in newspapers and circling them.
10. Having your mom pick your friends, and forcing you to be nice to everyone, even if they were really mean.
making and breaking a day
Making:
1. Getting out of bed and having time to prepare for the day.
2. Kids. Anytime. Today, we had Mini-Olympics. It was 300 (or more) pre-schoolers running around and playing games. It was great. Multiple times small children were too excited to contain themselves.
3. Getting enough done during the day to have a free night.
4. Seeing people being supportive of others choices.
5. Being able to walk and talk with friends that NEED catching up.
6. Teaching a lesson that goes really well.
Breaking:
1. People being judgmental. As a Christian, it's not our place to give others judgment. This includes judging people about being judgmental.. ha!
2. Following up on number one, it breaks my heart to see people talking about how the Bible never changes. If everything was taken WORD FOR WORD from the Bible, we would have slaves. We changed our out-look on slavery, most of us have learned to reason with divorce yet we still only accept gays. We accept them, but most people accept them with the hope of bringing them to church and hoping to change them.
3. Teachers telling kids that they can't do something, without even letting them try.
1. Getting out of bed and having time to prepare for the day.
2. Kids. Anytime. Today, we had Mini-Olympics. It was 300 (or more) pre-schoolers running around and playing games. It was great. Multiple times small children were too excited to contain themselves.
3. Getting enough done during the day to have a free night.
4. Seeing people being supportive of others choices.
5. Being able to walk and talk with friends that NEED catching up.
6. Teaching a lesson that goes really well.
Breaking:
1. People being judgmental. As a Christian, it's not our place to give others judgment. This includes judging people about being judgmental.. ha!
2. Following up on number one, it breaks my heart to see people talking about how the Bible never changes. If everything was taken WORD FOR WORD from the Bible, we would have slaves. We changed our out-look on slavery, most of us have learned to reason with divorce yet we still only accept gays. We accept them, but most people accept them with the hope of bringing them to church and hoping to change them.
3. Teachers telling kids that they can't do something, without even letting them try.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Niger
In August I will be traveling to Niger to serve as a teacher for Tom Johnsons family. I have began the fund-raising process, and hope to mail out my first set of letters this week. The funds needed are just under $6,500. This cost includes air-fare, living expenses, insurance and all other costs with traveling over seas. I will be returning to the US around Christmas time to student teach.
This is only a brief description, and I would love to tell everyone more in-depth about my decision and opportunities while in Niger.
I know that many people whom I do not have direct contact with read my blog. If you are seeking a way to help, email kinkadea1@central.edu or go to www.rca.org/volunteersupport.
This is only a brief description, and I would love to tell everyone more in-depth about my decision and opportunities while in Niger.
I know that many people whom I do not have direct contact with read my blog. If you are seeking a way to help, email kinkadea1@central.edu or go to www.rca.org/volunteersupport.
The little drop down menu will say Ashley Kinkade and from there you can do everything online.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
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