Survive

A few things are helping me survive "Pre-finals" weekend.

1. Nikki Boyd: Thanks for all the texts and figuring out what is due, when, and how.

2. Late night skype chats with Ryan.. either helping me edit my paper.. or playing guitar. I love it all the same.

3. Surprise visitors & Baking! Last night, I enjoyed baking with Dani and getting to sleep on the futon with my two favorite people (while watching Ninja turtles!)

4. Snail Mail (:

My day ended...

... perfectly.


(Yeah, that's right, I consider spilling day old coffee on my floor a perfect ending)

Bearing Fruit.

John 15:16 "You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit-- fruit that will last."

While I was in China, my dad shared this verse with me over a skype conversation. We were discussing God's plan in my life, and my current situation with a boy. It didn't really relate, other than the fact that I was meant to be a follower of Christ. I realized that God chose me! I need to live my life according to his will. For those who aren't aware, I am a huge planner. I have a list of things that I need to do, and the next four years of my life are lined up. At least they were. The tables are changing. I'm breathing deep and letting God have his way with me. I know the path I set up for my little 8-year-old self is NOT who God intended me to be, but I'm on a path of serving Him in a variety of ways.

God has more than just a PLAN in my life. He has PLANS for me. Plans that depend on timing, great prayers, flexibility, and lots and lots of guidance from Him. He has them for everyone, actually!

Little Secrets

My life could go in so many directions. I'd be content being a housewife, I'd be content teaching English as a Second Language, I'd be content being a missionary.. I could work for 4H... Hell, all of these things would make me more than CONTENT. I'd LOVE life.

I have finally decided that life is too short, and God's plan is still to vague. God can do so many things with me, and I'm never quite sure when I have found "the thing." I'm twenty, that seems far too old, but I look at all the things I have already done and just feel overwhelmed.

I never pictured myself to be the type of person to just give up everything at a moments notice and try something new, but that's the image I have been creating for myself recently.. Not to let on to any surprises.. (for those that know, shhhh)


Another little thing, I love this song. This song would be better than a boy throwing rocks at my window with flowers.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzQ9VrnNQLQ&feature=related

Daily Dialouge

Ashley: (as walking into a random classroom) "Sorry, I seem to have left my pants on the floor this morning."
*Professor gives blank stare, while a few students crack up*
Ashley: "... well I mean, I'm going to work at Fareway soon and I need pants."
*Giggles grow*
Ashley: "uhm.. yeah, my black pants are right here. kthanksbye."

some things bother me.

Lately, I haven't been my perfectly happy self. I'm not sure what the deal is. I have a couple of ideas..

1) Either classes aren't challenging me enough, or I'm not letting them challenge me enough. I know I shut down when things get too hard, but I can only think of about ten times when I have truly been challenged.

2) I'm freaking out because things are going too well in my life right now.

3) I'm getting sick.

4) Graduation isn't that far away, and I'm rather sure I'm not going anywhere I'd ever expected.. Top things on my list now are 1) Teaching English as a Second Language in the US 2) Peace Corp in China 3) Something Non-Profit related.

5) It's Christmas.. and to be frank, sometimes the holidays suck for me.

teaching english as a second langauge